Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Some young boy just called me sexy. Weird
So I have this myspace account. I don't go on there searching for peeps or looking around at peeps I don't already know, but I have one. I share pics with my family and stuff like that. Anyway... so I get this friend request from some young guy who's page says he's in Egypt. I didn't really care for his page, a bit too gangsta and all for me. But I approved him anyway, figuring I could always block him later if he proved a nuisance. Right after I approved him, he sent me a message telling me I was sexy and that he wished I was smiling in my picture cause he was sure I had a really cute smile. (plus some other stuff)
The picture in the upper right is the picture I am using now on myspace.
Anyway... the whole point of this is this: it makes me feel really weird. I'm not sure if it makes me feel icky or not, but definitely weird. Sometimes I feel sexy, but one look in the mirror usually takes care of that. I was sexy once, way long time ago. I've turned heads in my time, on occasion they were even someone who's head I wanted to turn. But this feels, well, weird. My sister said "maybe he's testing you to see if you want to cyber or whatever." Silly me, I hadn't even thought of that.
I'm just me. I don't feel that I look sexy in that picture, nor in any of the other ones I have posted there. I don't think I look like someone that anyone would want to 'cyber' with. (and besides, doesn't that just sound stupid?!)
It made me feel extremely uncomfortable, tho. And I'm trying to figure out why. Is it because no one has called me sexy in more years than I like to think of and I'm not used to it anymore? Is it because I see myself as completely and absolutely unattractive? Or is it only that I found his remarks crude and undignified?
On the one hand, I find it pretty funny. On the other hand... I am disturbed by it. I didn't ask him to come on there and start getting all personal with me! On the other hand... oh right, I don't have an other hand, okay, on the one foot... it would be nice to think that someone thought I was attractive or sexy or whatever; on the other foot... it would have been nice if it was someone with a little more charm and finesse.